Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Peace In Me

Every day in Uganda I am growing closer with these people. My heart is becoming bigger by the second. I have to say I am dreading the day that we leave because I know that it's going to be the end of a life changing trip, although I know it wont be the end of change in my life. I have loved every single moment being here. I completely forgot to inform you that my ticket has been changed and Robyn and I are now here until July 20th. God has provided, and I believe that He has a purpose for keeping us here for this time in our lives. My mind has been working constantly and it's sometimes hard to remember that I need a moment alone with God. I use to think of life very differently then I do today. I know that God has plans for my future and I am willing to do whatever He ask's of me. I have so many plans and idea's for my future, but I only have so much control over what really takes place. God has blessed me with so much, and it is very special to me because I know I dont deserve all that He has given me. Robyn and I recently spent a night at Sera's with her boys. We have had so many great memories here, but I have to admit that so far, that time we spent with those boys has been my absolute favorite. Every single one of those boys has touched my heart so seriously, they will never know what it has meant to me. They kept us up until 6am just chatting, dancing, teasing, playing games and just spending time together. For those of you who dont know, my dearest aunt Sera has taken in 20 boys from the street. They range from ages 4 to 17, and they are the most loving boys you will ever know. Sera is such an amazing mother to them and she has inspired me beyond all comparison. How many people would have the patience and heart to live in a house and care for 20 young growing boys? I ask you all to pray that God will provide all the needs that this kind of work requires.

My sister and I are having the experience of a lifetime. When we were young girls we wanted to spend every day with our grandparents. When I was 9 years old and Robyn was 8, we use to spend the night at Momm & Papa's almost every Sunday night. Monday morning one of us would go to school with Papa (when he was a teacher) and the other would spend the day with Momm playing with her hair and helping around the house. Our grandparents have been so important to us growing up. It amazes me that the four of us get to grow with each other. We are learning so much about one another and about our Father. As a young girl I have always wanted to be like my Papa. I have always watched the way he did things, and how he loved people so much. Papa was so good with us kids. He always knows how to make us laugh, and he said yes to EVERYTHING. When Momm would teach me about protecting my heart and tell me how important and special I was, I knew that one day I would do the same thing with my children and grandkids and she was showing me the perfect way to do that. When we were little girls Momm would have little tea
parties with us, then let us play with her hair, and once in a while she would let us do her make up (when she didn't plan on seeing anyone that day). I started to grow up and live a wild life and I became careless with the things I was doing. I have always been afraid to tell my Momm & Papa who I was, because I didn't want to disappoint them ... they were my hero's. I didn't want them to know I was a failure. God has done so much in me and i know He loves me no matter what my past is. Today they both know everything about my life that I swore I would never tell them. They love me no matter what my past is. So many breaks and tares in my heart have been mended and healed.
Dear Momm & Papa,
thank you for loving me. Thank you for being the best you can be. God has blessed me and taught me many things through you. You are so special to me. We are in the right place at the right time with the right people. This was God's plan. I am encouraged by you both every day whether you know it or not. I love you SO SO SO much it makes me cry, because I know you love me the same. I hope one day you will see how much it means to me.

God is a forgiving God. He has saved my life. He has protected me. He has taken my burdens. He has accepted me with o
pen arms. He reminds me every day that I am loved and He reminds me every day to share that love.

I Love You!

8 comments:

  1. Amazing blair! That is well spoken and welcomed im sure. They are good people huh?
    Thanks for sharing.

    Best,


    Dad

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  2. Oh, my BlairB! You and Robynanna are so dear to me. Lovely post. I enjoy these updates from you.

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  3. What an amazing post! God's glory has oozed out all over my computer! I am so excited for you and Robyn! God has given you both a special gift and you are enjoying every minute of it. This makes Him very happy! He loves it when His kids enjoy the good things he gives. And soon Hannah and Sarah will be there too! Won't that be crazy!
    Blessings
    Matthew

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  4. Blair & Robyn, NOTHING will ever stop us from loving you. I am amazed that we are seperated by two generations, yet we are together in ways that most parents don't even experience with their children, let alone grandchildren. God has knit our hearts together from long ago, and I love that. You are the Best. Thank you for trusting us to share your life with us - ALL of it. We hold you dearly in our hearts and are treasuring every moment with you. <3 Momm

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  5. Happy tears :) Blair, please keep writing! Thank you for sharing the heritage you have with your grandparents...hugs :)

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  6. aww! This is an amazing post Blair. I enjoyed reading every bit of your post becoz it's so touching. Am so thankful to God that He is transforming your lives each single day and making you into what He pleases. I see the glory of God in you and Robyn. Am glad God gave you grandparents who know him and using them to minister to you both. I agree they are good.

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  7. This is a great post Blair! Nothing beats a surrendered life for Jesus. You and Robyn are beautiful girls.

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  8. Thank you for sharing your heart with us! God is so good. I am so grateful that he has given you this time to be there with your Momm and Papa!
    Love you so so much, Fonda

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